Weekly Check In

 It’s been another busy one but a good week overall. It’s still gorgeous weather wise which I really can’t complain about but I really feel our houses are not set up for this kind of heat. It does make for quite uncomfortable nights. I worry about both kids getting too hot overnight! 

Weight 78.5kg 

Exercise 

I didn’t manage any strength training over the weekend but I have done two skipping sessions this week and increased the duration to 12 mins. I also did a short strength routine following this today. 

Nutrition 

Hmmmm this is ok. If I have time to plan meals and cook then things go well. If I don’t I find myself reaching for processed foods and snacking a lot. The same is true if I don’t get a good nights sleep. Thursdays and Fridays tend to be the worst days because I’ve got the two kids in my own. I just don’t get time to make myself anything proper. I’ve prepped some lunches for the next couple of days to try and improve this. We’ve also had a couple of takeaways which I try not to have any guilt about and just enjoy and move on. 

Mood 

I’m feeling ok this week. We’ve had a couple of bad nights sleep wise which has brought me down a bit. Sometimes I can feel like I’m stretched to my limit and that makes it hard. I don’t get much time to myself at all but also I love time with my babies so much. It’s such a conflicting time of life. I would love for N’s sleep to get a bit more predictable but I think we are a while off that yet. 

Goals for this week:

Eat prepared lunches and reduce processed food on Thursday and Friday 

Skip mon-wed 

One strength session at the weekend 

Weekly check in

 It seems that every time I write it’s a heatwave. Another very hot day here today. Maybe that’s helped my mood a little but I’m feeling pretty good today. 

I survived the weekend solo parenting couple of weeks ago and then we made a trip to see the in laws last weekend. It’s been a busy couple of weeks and I’ve really needed the last few days to recover and catch up with laundry, housework and life admin. It’s nice to feel a bit more organised today. 

Check In 

Weight 78.3kg 

Exercise

My knees are still feeling good. I’ve done some skipping today and yesterday. I’ve increased the time to 12minutes. I’m also continuing to do a 10 minute mobility workout I found on YouTube. 

Nutrition 

My diet wasn’t great over the weekend. We were staying with the in laws so it really depended upon what they had in. My MIL very kindly cooked for us and then on Saturday night we all got a takeaway. On Sunday there was lots of party food as we were celebrating some birthdays. It was good fun. I enjoyed the treats but was ready to get back to my usual diet come Monday. I feel so much better after just a couple of days of eating more plant based foods. 

I’ve gone on a bit of a journey revamping my diet over this last year. I’ve done a lot of reading around ultra processed foods, fermented foods and plant based diets. However, I’m learning all the time and I’m realising that not all processed foods are “bad”. I compared the ingredient list for full fat and low fat butter from Aldi and actually the only additional ingredient was water. Same with low fat cheddar cheese - there weren’t any additional ingredients I was concerned about. So I have made a couple of swaps this week to reduce my calorie intake. I’m not counting calories but I’m just trying to make easy simple swaps where I can. 

Mood 

In general I’m feeling good. The weekend of solo parenting and the travelling was hanging over me I think. As much as it was lovely to see everyone I’m glad to be home. I’m feeling really motivated and I’m enjoying getting into a very loose routine with health and fitness. I haven’t journaled much but I’m hoping to try and make that a priority over this next week. 

Goals for this week

• skip mon/tues/wed

•journal before bed

•one strength session at the weekend 

Stormy

 Today has been so much better. I did feel quite tense all day, worrying that things would eventually spiral at bedtime but they didn’t and I’m honestly so grateful. 

It’s still pretty hot here but there was a storm and the heat has eased off a little. C wakened very early which is quite uncharacteristic. I could tell he was tired all morning but he did so well. We went to a toddler group and then he had a short nap in the car. I think that really helped him. We then met my sister and nephew at a play area. The boys had a brilliant time but we got caught in a rain storm which in the end was quite funny. 

I made it a priority today to talk to C about bedtime. I wondered if separation anxiety was a problem since his sister was born. He gets so upset when we have to say goodnight whereas before he was so content at bedtime. I reassured him that I would check on him and that I had the monitor etc. 

My husband is away now for the weekend so it was a solo bedtime tonight. I got so lucky because my youngest had a nap and it meant I could give C my full attention. We had some lovely quiet play in his room and then red a story. I reassured him again that I would check on him and I left his star projector on a timer tonight so that he could watch the stars in his bed. He was content and happy and tired. So far there have been no peeps but I don’t want to count my chickens just yet. 

My diet today hasn’t been great. If I’m not prepared for solo parenting days (which I’m not) then I find that beyond breakfast things are not great nutrition wise. It all becomes quite snacky and there are lots of caffeinated beverages throughout the day. I haven’t managed to do any exercise either but I’ve been on my feet non stop. I didn’t expect or plan to do any formal exercise anyway. 

I’m not expecting that bedtime will continue as it did tonight but I am so grateful for how tonight went after last nights experience. I think we all needed one good one. 

Heatwave

 Wow. Today was hard. 

I honestly don’t know how it all happened but the day very quickly spiralled out of control. The heat probably didn’t help either. 

We got up as normal and my husband went to work. Normally we got to a toddler playgroup on a Thursday morning. Today would have been the last session before the summer break but it became apparent we were not making it. My youngest would not settle to sleep no matter what I tried. She ended up quite upset. C watched more TV than I would have liked whilst I tried to settle her. I eventually abandoned the nap and tried to get on with the day. It was so hot though that I felt I couldn’t put her in the baby carrier. I felt she would overheat (I did eventually put her in it later in the day). 

The morning wore on and I could feel that everything was becoming a battle with my toddler. His naptime arrived and I hoped this would be a good point to reset. How wrong I was. He didn’t settle for his nap either. I know I’m not the first and I definitely won’t be the last but it’s so hard trying to settle a 2.5 year old whilst you have a 3 month old. The nap never happened and I think he really needed it. He is in the process of dropping his nap but I think he can still benefit from 30-45 mins. We had a bit of downtime but I could sense he was very tired throughout the afternoon and his behaviour understandably deteriorated. There were several meltdowns over things that were obviously a big deal for him but to us seem like something you would do on autopilot. For example, I closed the freezer door but he wanted it to stay open. I couldn’t work out why but he got very upset about this. Meanwhile I was worrying that my breastmilk stores were going to start defrosting! By this point I did have N in the baby carrier and she chose this moment of chaos to fall asleep. I was very grateful! 

Things went from bad to worse and I knew I needed to get him to bed sharp but my husband was still not home from work and N was needing lots of cuddles. Somehow we managed to get bathed and ready for bed. I really thought he was going to go immediately to sleep especially because we had gone up early given he didn’t have a nap. What followed was 2 hours of trying to settle C. I felt so bad for him, he was so distressed. He did finally settle to sleep but I think he was very overtired and that made everything more difficult. He’s now had a wake up and I’m feeding N as I type. My husband is in with him and it sounds like it’s going ok. I am soooooo worried about my husband going away tomorrow. I’m really stressed that both kids seem to be going through something at the moment…. It could be illness brewing or developmental leaps but it feels like both of them have increased needs just now and the timing couldn’t be worse. 

I honestly wish my husband would say he isn’t going to the wedding but I understand that he can’t really do that. Well, he could, but he’s paid for travel, accommodation and it is his cousins wedding afterall. 

I feel a bit of a failure sometimes when I feel like I can’t cope. I can feel the anxiety building up and it probably makes everyone tense including the kids. I just want to be there for them and make them feel safe and loved when they are having their own struggles. It can be so hard with a toddler though when they don’t understand that something isn’t safe or practical e.g leaving the freezer door open! 

I’m going to try and get some rest now. I’m not sure how much I’ll get over the next few nights. 

Midweek Check In

 It’s a heatwave where we are today so I’ve mostly been about the house keeping baby and dog nice and cool. I got out first thing and did some mobility exercises and 10 minutes of skipping. I took a break from skipping altogether for a few weeks to give my knees time to recover (we were also away for a week during that time. My knees definitely feel a lot better. In fact I’ve done some skipping 2 days in a row and they feel fine. My homemade "rehab programme" seems to be helping. For the next 4 days though i've got both kids on my own so i'm unlikely to fit in any exercises but to be honest I think that's a good thing. I think it will force me to give my knees the rest they probably need even although they feel ok.

We were away for 4 days last week and I needed to catch up with myself this week. There was so much washing and housework to do. It's so hard to get a run at anything. I know lots of people say the housework will still be there when the kids are grown up and I do get that but also I like there to be some sort of order in the house! It makes me feel so much better mentally. 

This week I’ve managed to do mobility exercises each morning, one strength session and 2 skipping sessions. I’m feeling good about that. I’ve also been eating really well. I enjoyed being on holiday but it’s always good to get home and enjoy some home cooking and fresh ingredients. 

Mentally I’ve been struggling a bit though this week. Various things have been stressing me. My toddler has been pushing my buttons at bedtime. I find it so hard when baby is upset and my eldest also needs something. My husband was out so it was a solo bedtime. I’m not sure if I handled it well or not. I felt pretty stressed. I’m feeling anxious because my husband is going to his cousins wedding this weekend. It involves being away Friday to Sunday. He won’t return until after bedtime on Sunday night. I’ve made plans for during the day but it’s the evenings and bedtimes that can get quite tough. I’m really trying to mentally prepare myself. I don’t want to get frustrated or annoyed. I want to be calm and present. I also want to try and relax and embrace the chaos. If it doesn’t go well and bedtime is later etc then I need to accept that it’s ok for that to happen. 

I also feel things with my parents are quite strained and I don’t find them helpful when it comes to the kids. I’m trying not to mention my husband being away too much because sometimes I find my mum immediately thinks she can be here all weekend and honestly I can’t cope with that. It makes things 10 times harder. She mostly wants to come and gossip and tell me about all the family politics between her sisters. She doesn’t really help with the kids at all and they often seem more stressed when she’s around. It’s so difficult to manage it all but I do feel a bit isolated going into this weekend. I really wish I could rely on them a bit more and not feel so stressed by them. 

My goal for the next 4 days is to be kind to myself, relax, enjoy the lovely moments with my kids and ride out the difficult times. 

Holiday Struggles

 We are currently away for a few days. Our first trip as a family of 5 (including the dog). Honestly, it has been quite tiring. I really needed a change of scenery and I’m very grateful to be getting it. We have had some lovely family time together but parenting on holiday is hard.

I know holidays are not what they used to be. It’s different now. Still fun, just different and not really about resting. 

Our eldest has had a week of “big feelings” and acting out. I think he is possibly having a developmental leap. His language seems to have advanced a lot quite quickly. I also think that at home he knows the boundaries and the routine but now we are somewhere different it’s time to test if the rules are different too. We are trying to stick to his routine as much as possible. His grandparents also visited the weekend before we left for this trip and I think that generated a lot of excitement. 

The resort we are in is lovely and caters perfectly for families. I think any trip is difficult with a nearly 3 year old and a 3 month old but I think if the kids were just a little older we could make use of everything this resort has to offer. A few things have disrupted this trip due to our current circumstances. We were placed in a lodge directly across from a lodge that was having renovation work done. This was quite loud and there were lots of vehicles coming and going from the property. Our dog would understandably bark sometimes at this and in a small lodge it can really disrupt daytime naps. There were also various things that we found weren’t working which can all be quite frustrating when you have a toddler pushing your buttons and a baby who needs you hands on 24/7. The staff have been quite helpful and we are now in a different lodge but also arrived to find the TV wasn’t working. I try to be as patient as I can but I know when I’m at my limit when things like this start to bother me. 

Yesterday was quite a stressful day and although it was good to get placed in a different lodge I honestly wonder if the hassle of moving was worth it. I feel like it’s disrupted our holiday quite a bit. 

Today has been a lot better, we’ve taken it pretty easy and I’ve tried to lower my expectations. I miss being able to go for a swim and use the gym/sauna/steam room. I miss having the evening time to rest and recharge. I know all these things come back and I know I don’t want to wish these precious times away but I have found this week fairly challenging. 

I want to keep travelling and making memories with the kids but I will take everything I’ve learned on this trip into consideration for the next. 

Knee Pain

So I’ve continued skipping for 10 minutes or so at home and I’m really enjoying it. It feels great to get outside and have 10 minute to myself. Cardiovascularly I feel I could go longer but I’ve noticed some knee pain which has curtailed things a little. 

I feel a little frustrated because I was so excited about the prospect of being able to get some decent cardio at home. However, I need to remember it’s still early days. N is only 12 weeks and I’m still recovering. 

I’ve been thinking about ways to minimise the pain whilst continuing to exercise. I’m going to try not skipping on consecutive days. I also think I need new shoes. I bought my current pair of running shoes in 2022! The soles are fairly smooth now. I think it would help if I had a little more cushioning. 

I’ve also started skipping on foam gym mats that we have. I’ve definitely noticed an improvement from just doing that. I used to skip for long periods on a concrete garage floor without any after effects.  How times have changed! 

I have already been doing some basic strength exercises. I am going to continue these and focus on the lower body. I’m hoping that this will help to take some pressure off the knees which I’m guessing are working harder than they normally would pre pregnancy. My routine involves some squats, clamshells, glute bridges and lunges. 

Finally, I’ve looked at some supplements to see if there is anything that can help or that may help in the future as I get older. I think the evidence for a lot of these things is quite variable and mostly weak. Ultimately a good diet and strengthening exercises are probably the key to solving this problem. From what I can tell there is most evidence around omega 3 fish oils without much evidence of harm. I’m going to try this in addition to all of the above and see if there is any improvement.